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Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Ugh. Really? I have to think about another positive thing about myself? I really struggle with these.

So I cheated a little. I outsourced the question and asked Leebeesa how she thinks I should answer this question about myself. Her response was: ‘You are really good at being a mom you love it!’

So I pondered this for a while. I don’t think I’m the best mother in the world, but I also don’t think I suck at it. It’s a HUGE responsibility to directly influence how someone’s life turns out. I often ponder the nature vs. nurture thing. My Evil Mother grew up with my grandparents and turned out the way she did. I cannot fathom that my grandparents messed her up.

Rudi has a special touch with Babyice and sometimes he is more attuned to his needs at a specific time than I am. Sometimes I’m at my wits end and he has the answer. Sometimes Babyice will refuse to take a bottle from me, but he’ll drink it if Rudi gives it to him. He is the absolute best at putting him to sleep. This shatters my confidence a bit. It makes me feel like I’m ill equipped or not good enough.

I do, however, always put Babyice first. He is always my first priority. I love him with all my heart. The fact that I have the opportunity to shape this human being and learn from the mistakes of others is the best thing I have going for me right now.

I’m going to do my best not to screw it up.

P.S. Since writing this post we visited the pediatrician. I spoke to him about sleep training (as I needed him to convince Rudi) and he commented that it is really nice to see an ‘involved mother’. WOOT! Then as we were leaving, while discussing Babyice’s constant cough and chest issues, I mentioned to him that I wasn’t too fond of giving Babyice something to supress his cough as most of the cough mixtures contain Codeine. He looked at me, put his hand on my shoulder and said ‘You sound like a very sensible woman’. To me, coming from someone who is judging your parenting, those are two huge compliments 😀

Maybe I’m not so bad after all!