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Dear Jamie…

Dearest Jamie


Today you would have been two. So much has happened since the last letter I wrote to you.


Your brother was born just about 9 months ago. It wasn’t nearly as scary as mommy thought it would be. It was also a lot easier than the day you were born. Your brother is a big, healthy and strong boy. We are ever so proud of him.


I’ve got some good news for you. You’ll be seeing your great grandfather soon. It is very sad for us that he is not well and that he won’t be with us much longer, but I’m comforted by the fact that he’ll be there with you. I’m ever so sorry that your brother will never get to know him. You’ll see why. He is a wonderful man and I’m sure you’ll love him just as much as much as I do.


This past year has been filled with so much joy and so much sadness, at the end of it I don’t think I’ll be able to call it a good or a bad year. The year you were born was definitely the worst of my life (only because you couldn’t stay here with us), whereas the year before you were born was the best. Now I’ve gotten one that’s in between.


Your brother being born was one of the highlights, of course. We were quite overwhelmed by his arrival and we struggled a bit at first, but with help from a few friends (like Aunty Cazpi) we made it through and now things are going wonderfully. The hardest part of this year for us has been watching your Oupa GG* slip away from us. He is suffering terribly and it is very difficult for us to watch. It shouldn’t be long now before you see him. I was kind of hoping for his sake that he would get to spend your birthday with you, but it looks like he’ll miss it and probably only be there for Christmas.


You be a good girl for mommy and welcome Oupa GG with open arms when he gets there, show him around and enjoy him. As we miss you, we will miss him very much as well. I am sure you will be happy together. I know he is looking forward to coming home, especially with you and his mommy and daddy waiting there for him.


I hope they threw you a lovely party up there in heaven my angel. I hope it is all you ever dreamed of and more. Don’t forget that mommy will always carry you in her heart and misses you. You will never be forgotten.


All my love,
Mommy


* GG stands for Great Grandfather. Babyice would also have called him this. Pronounced gee gee

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