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Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Dear Oupa

I haven’t ever really given anyone “hero” status in my life. The closest thing I’ve had to a hero is you. With everything you’ve done for me and everything you’ve meant to me and so many other people, perhaps “hero” is a fitting term. You’ve been a hero to me and to others.

You let me down when you didn’t understand that I couldn’t have anything to do with My Evil Mother. I understand that it was against your “love and forgive everybody” beliefs, but at the same time I know that you struggle with forgiving her yourself. I thought you would understand that I had to do what was best for myself and for Babyice. It worked out in the end now, didn’t it?

You’ve disappointed me now…by dying on me. I know it’s not your fault and that you didn’t want this, but that doesn’t mean I’m not let down. I know you fought with all you could and I know sometimes you’ve wanted to give up. I know I pushed you, but only because I didn’t want to lose you. I know now that it is inevitable and I really wish things were different. You need to stop hanging on. It’s killing us to watch you suffer.

Love you muchly