We have successfully breastfed for 4 months. Yay us! 4 months is also where we go for our second check up at the paed and this is where I thought our breastfeeding journey would start drawing to a close.
For about two weeks before the appointment I was agonizing over it. PrincessIce is a small baby. She was born at a fairly average weight, but her weight never really took off from there. It has slowly and steadily increased and she is following the curve on the growth chart, she just isn’t winning any races. She is still wearing her 0 -3 months baby clothes. I am enjoying the breastfeeding and the bonding with her, so the thought of it all being over was saddening.
I was certain the pediatrician was going to ask us to supplement with formula to get her weight up. I decided that we would rather take up mixed feeding so that we could still breastfeed. She could get formula during the day from the day mother and breast milk at night and on weekends. I do know, however, that the introduction of formula can spell disaster for breastfeeding for some. Babies get lazy to drink from the breast or start preferring the bottle, so I was nervous about this too.
On the day of her paediatric appointment I was calm. It wasn’t the end of the world. We had managed 4 months of exclusive breastfeeding and that was something I could be proud of. I was also steeling myself as I feared I might burst into tears in the pediatrician’s office when he confirmed my feelings of inadequacy. I decided not to raise the subject and take my cues from him. I undressed her in the office, he checked her height, head circumference, eyes, hips, tummy, arms, if she could hold her head up and almost as an afterthought plopped her on the scale. He said “I weigh 5.6 mommy and daddy” and returned to his desk while I redressed her. He sat making notes and then said we can go. I was a little shocked. I asked about when to start her on solids as we had started Babyice at 4 months, but I couldn’t imagine doing so with her for some reason. He recommended waiting till she is 6 months. I asked if we should just continue breastfeeding and he said “Definitely!”. I couldn’t believe it! He showed me her chart and said everything is perfect. So after all that worrying, everything is great. We may have gotten off to a rocky start, but it seems things have settled nicely and everyone is happy.
This does mean I have a lot of breast pumping in my future, at work to boot. I already loathe it, but it’s a sacrifice I am willing to make. My goal at the moment is 6 months exclusive breastfeeding and I’ll play it by ear from there. I’m just so happy that it is up to me and PrincessIce in the end.