June 22nd, 2011 | Posted by acidicice

I have been failing at gym for almost 3 weeks. First I was sick, then Babyice was sick and then we were lazy. I went to yoga the week before last, feeling that I *need* to start going again and we committed to starting again this week. We went on Monday and I managed 33 minutes of cardio, I normally do 40. The elliptical was killing me though and I didn’t think I could go a full 20 minutes. I powered through 13 and then went to do my 10 minutes of rowing and 10 minutes cycling. We’ll be going this evening again and we’re back into it full swing. I am not prepared to put on the weight that I’ve lost again. Luckily I have lost it the hard way and this means that it was kind to me while I faltered for 3 weeks and didn’t sneak back up on me. We are still not following an eating plan, or making an effort to eat better. We keep talking about it, but talk is cheap! We will do it eventually, I’m sure. Winter is probably not a great time to start, but we can’t wait till summer again.

I am really stressed out at the moment. Work is stressful. Well, not work, but the work environment. Half my team is not speaking to me because of something they assume I did. I don’t feel like fighting with them, really I don’t. I don’t have the energy. There are four of them and one of me and I couldn’t be bothered. They can think what they like, ignore me and make snide remarks if it pleases them. I will come in and do my job and keep quiet. It does make it very difficult to work with them, but what can you do? Sometimes you can cut the tension with a knife, but I’m really glad I don’t have one. That would be dangerous.

I feel like I’m getting sick again. My head feels stuffy, my nose feels stuffy and I have a headache every day. Feels like sinus issues. I just hope I can power through it because the medical aid has taken a lovely knock lately and I’d like to keep what is leftover for Babyice if he needs it. Makes me wonder what I pay so much money for.

Babyice is doing well. He is ever so cute and naughty. He is still climbing on everything like a monkey and trying to give me a heart attack. He is starting to speak more and more, although it is still very difficult to know exactly what he is saying. We have figured out that he calls any cat he sees “Amber” though. We’re going to have to let him know that not all cats are called Amber! He is definitely his very own person now. He is very independant. He doesn’t like to hold your hand when you’re walking in a centre. I’m going to have to leash the kid. I don’t like the idea of a leash for a kid, but I also don’t like the idea of never seeing my kid again because he ran off when he shouldn’t have or has been snatched because he left your sight for 2 seconds. He is at stage now that he will impose his will on you by any means necessary (usually by screaming, kicking and crying). We decided to attempt sleep training again last night. It was an epic fail. He started crying, which later escalated to screaming (this stopped intermittently) and after about 7 minutes Rudi couldn’t take it anymore and went to go and fetch him.

I don’t think I will ever be able to sleep train using the cry out method with Rudi in the house. He cannot tolerate it. I’m tougher than him in this regard since I know that there is nothing wrong with him and that he is trying to manipulate us, but Rudi has a really soft heart. *sigh* So I guess we’ll just have to hope he starts sleeping through on his own again. Bah. He has suprised us by sleeping through some nights, but it’s not consistent and we can’t predict when he will wake up. This morning he woke up at 04:30. It’s not great, but at least we’re getting a full night’s sleep some nights. It’s better than nothing. I’m really hoping that our return back to gym isn’t going to overstimulate him to the point where he can’t sleep again. I have a feeling this may have something to do with it. After he comes home from the day mother, we rush to get to gym, he plays at Club V and when he gets home he has very little/no time to “wind down” from his day. We’ll have to monitor and see.

On that note, the Huggies Gold have only failed us one time since we’ve started using them. We’ve also cut out his 16:00 bottle to try and minimize his liquid intake. He no longer needs a bottle at that time of day. We give him some juice and a snack to replace it. After instructing the day mother to remove the afternoon bottle from his routine I figured out that he was drinking a lot of juice AND a milk bottle by her. No wonder the kid was wetting himself every night!

So here is hoping that I can survive this week. I worked the weekend past. It was a HECTIC work weekend and I am really tired. Can’t wait for Friday afternoon 16:00 to roll around!