Feeling down
I thought it would be a good idea to start weaning myself of the anti-depressants that I got since I’m coming close to finishing them. The first time I skipped a day I was fine. Today was the second day I skipped and I can really feel that I’ve done it.
I made a mistake at work, it was escalated to someone else and they brought it to my attention. They were not nasty about it at all, but I nearly burst into tears. I misunderstood the process and because of that a customer and another department were upset. Luckily she sorted it out for me and I learnt from my mistake, but I really felt upset about the entire situation.
I got a SMS from my friend Nellie in PE. We don’t talk often anymore, definitely not every day like we used to, but we do keep in touch. I miss her and feel like such a bad friend for not contacting her more often. I do think about her and think “Oh…I should SMS her”, but I don’t and then weeks go by without contact. She then initiates the contact and I feel bad. I also haven’t been keeping in touch with other people I really care about that aren’t close to me. I feel guilty. I shouldn’t because I do have a lot on my plate at the moment, but I do.
Perhaps I should try taking half the pill instead of skipping days. Maybe that will be better. It’s been a blue Monday for me. Perhaps I’m just still tired from working the weekend.
Ok. Enough whining. Byeeeeee.
Mondays are always blue for me normally Tuesdays are worse, you are going through some really heavy stuff at the moment and I know your friends realise it, friends stick by you and understand you even through the silence. :O) half is always a better thing.
I know exactly what you mean about wanting to keep in touch with people! I’ll think about contacting someone via SMS or such, but don’t because I’m busy or driving or whatever. And then I’ll think about it again late at night when it’s not suitable to do anything. It’s so tough! I do have to make more of an effort.
You should definitely wean yourself off the pills, don’t just skip a day! Start taking half a pill for the next few days. Then start taking half a pill every second day. It’s much better to wean yourself than quit cold turkey!
xoxo
trying to send some happy dust your way- dont worry im sure all the ppl around you (and those not so close) understand what you are going through at the moment just like im sure Nellie also understands and she wont turn her back on you! Dont worry to much about it
Regarding the medication i think it would be best to slowly “break away” from them maybe do half then down to quater before going totally “cold turkey”on it
Chin up and hope you feeling better soon
Sorry that you have had a blue Monday. I hope that your Tuesday will be better.
I don’t mean to sound imposing but may I suggest going to your Dr and getting some help with regards to weaning yourself off your meds?
ps…You do have a lot on your plate at the moment and I am sure your friends understand this. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
xx
As someone who is on AD and tried to wean but still needs them. YOu should start with a half pill, after a week, then go down to half pill every other day.
I did the same thing, stopped cold-turkey with my meds and can honestly say it wasn’t the best idea. talk to the doctor that gave them to you about weaning yourself off them slowly.
It’s been 2 years or so since i stopped taking mine and i feel okay now, but it’s a process, not just an end point. x
With all that’s going on with babyice and your granddad i’m not sure that weaning yourself now is a very good idea. Taking them is not the end of the world and if you need them to cope then keep taking them until you can cope and until all the paw paw that has hit the fan has been cleared up and wiped clean. Hang in there friend.
I was also on med’s like that and what I did to wean off was the following (maybe it’ll help): I asked my doctor to half my doze, and then half again and when I was on the lowest dose possible, I then took a tablet every second day, then every third day. Then half a tablet every third day. Its a process, but it gives your body time to adjust to the changes. Good luck – I hope it all works out.
Maybe take on every second day till you feel better…?
Do go for half a pill, then half every other day, then every third day etc. I know.