Time is running out…
Today is one of those days that I am happy to be pregnant. I’m not feeling very uncomfortable right now or too tired at the moment. Last night not so much. I could not for the life of me find a comfortable position to sit down/lie down on the couch while we were watching TV. Eventually I just went to bed. It was driving me nuts!
Only 30 days to go now…
The other day I was standing folding Babyice’s clothes and it occurred to me that I’m having a baby. I don’t get these moments of clarity often, but every now and then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I think I am still very much in denial about what is going to happen to me very shortly. My entire life is about to change. I don’t think I understand to what extent this will be happening. I’m going to be falling in love with someone and will probably love this person so much my heart wants to explode.We will be responsible for this little human being and will need to make sure he is fed, clothed and healthy.We will be responsible for developing him as a human being and will need to make sure he is loved and has principles and morals instilled in him from an early age. We will be responsible for his very early education and will need to stimulate his senses and encourage him to learn.
Even though I am able to write these things down, it is almost as if I am writing them about someone else. I don’t know how to explain it. None of it is a reality. Once he is here I am sure it will become evident…but right now…its not something that is going to happen to me.
Pffft. I don’t know if I am making any sense!
My housekeeper finally comes back to work on Wednesday. I’m sure she is going to be of great help getting the baby room sorted out. Its freaking me out to no end, but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything there now. The only thing I *want* for Babyice, but don’t have yet is a sling. I’m having a look around for one to see what I can find.
I’ve finally submitted my maternity leave. Its getting so close now. My hospital bag is partially packed. I need a bigger suitcase. I’ve got a tiny one I borrowed from my mother in law. I also need more pyjamas…and stuffs. More stuffs. Ok. I need a list. That is what I need. A list. We got one from antenatal class. Eek.
EEK!
You make absolute sense! The caring and helping and morals etc comes with time – so don’t stress
The sling? – borrow one, as there are so many styles, and some babies hate them….and if you find one that works, buy it! It’s about finding the right one 
I have one for you….must go scratch for it….
Don’t stress about anything you don’t have yet. You have a seat to take him home in, a place for him to sleep and clothes to keep him warm in. And you have boobs to feed him with. For now, you don’t really need anything else.
I’m so excited for you – it’s going to be awesome!
Even when you think you’re ready, everything changes the moment you hold that baby in your arms for the first time. Don’t stress hun, they actually end up NEEDING a lot less stuff than we think they do.
It is all going to be just fabulous.
You’ll be fine, don’t stress:) Glad your nanny is coming back, they’re a great help!
One day at a time darling- one day at a time!
It is scary and exciting all at the same time – but mostly just wonderful. I have a Kango Pouch you can borrow if you like. It was a life saver for me Joshua lived in it – broke my back though cos he was a big boy
I owe you a sling email – sorry Hun will do it today
as for the rest relax the right emotion and skill will come when you need it. Just trust your instinct over all else.
So so so so exciting. really happy for you lady! not long to go now and no doubt you will treasure every moment of babyice – even the lack of sleep and stinky nappies. You will have an appreciation for your child at a level matched by few other moms because, through losing Jamie, you know how precious a baby really is and what it is to be without your own. But of course, you know all this.
Enjoy the last few weeks with him inside you – all the moves and kicks and bonding x