I’m officially back at work today. Rudi and I hardly slept a wink last night, so I’m exhausted (Note to self: Take prescribed sleeping tablet tonight). I’ve been crying at least half the time I’ve been here. Everyone has been so sweet. I told my manager I would be OK if everyone just stopped asking [...]
So my bruises are healing and so is my heart. My bruises are healing at an alarming rate, whereas my heart is taking a little longer, but that is to be expected. Rudi and I have decided to start trying again as soon as possible. Most likely late December/early January. I hope it doesn’t take [...]
So I finally stopped being stubborn and went to the doctor yesterday. Today I am R600 poorer. I do feel like I’m starting to get better though. My throat is slightly less sore and my sinus’ seem to be clearing themselves out. Yummy. The weather is starting to clear up which is great news for [...]
Physically I still feel like crap today. I’m going to the doctor later this afternoon since I’m convinced I need antibiotics and the only way to get my hands on them is to pay my doctor over R200.00 to write the name of the medication down on a piece of paper. Then we’ll see how [...]
I wonder when it will stop hurting. I’m at a point now where I cannot look at baby things or toys or babies. On Saturday (when everything sunk in) Rudi took me to a ‘fun day’ type thing that they were having near where we live. I was already upset and then I saw a [...]
I spent the entire day alone yesterday for the first time since we found out that there was something wrong with our baby. It wasn’t easy. I broke down at some point and felt like the walls were closing in. I wanted to run. Instead I took a shower, washed and dried my hair. I [...]
The memorial service was held on Sunday after our church service. My mother in law, sister in law, aunt, uncle, grandmother, grandfather, My Evil Mother, Rudi and I were all there. My mother in law brought flowers and a slab of chocolate. My aunt and My Evil Mother cried more than I did. It was [...]
***WARNING***Some readers may find content graphic or upsetting It hit me this morning for the first time. Yesterday I was feeling guilty for not feeling worse. For not having cried yet. I know I’m supposed to, but it hadn’t happened. This morning it happened. I cried. Not a snivelling, silent cry either. A full blown [...]
***WARNING*** Some readers may find descriptions graphic. On Monday we went to Tygerberg hospital to go for the scan and to make our final decision. It was as we feared and they found another problem on top of all the other things that were suspected. The results of the scan were as follows: The baby’s [...]
You can go here to see all the halloween pics. I’m not coping very well today. Burst into tears at church and couldn’t stop crying for a while. Not 100% sure why, nothing in particular set me off. Not looking forward to the trip to the hospital tomorrow, but it’s got to be done.
